Thursday, May 5, 2011

5 Things Bout Me




…a lot of wrong decisions have been made in the past which is obviously affecting me now and maybe in the future and it’s pretty depressing that I can’t take it all back... but i'm sure it will be alright.

…I’m happy, not with my life, but with living… because I’m living with and surrounded with wonderful, sweet people whom I call “family”, “friends”, and of course, there’s my soulmate who is always holding my hand

…I believe in the Almighty Father, that even though I cannot see Him, I know He’s with me. That even though my life’s a mess right now, He’ll be with me sweeping around the dusts and making it all clean and polished

...I’m in love with love stories, and romantic movies, and fairy tales not only because I’m corny but also I love to be inspired… I love to believe that there really is this something called “magic” between two persons and that happy endings really do happen in real life.

…sometimes I’m selfish. I get easily jealous, back in high school - with my girlfriends, now, with my boyfriend. I do not know. Maybe I’m just afraid to be left alone. I’m afraid that someone will come out of nowhere and snatch the very ones that I love… the only ones that I have. And nobody has the right to blame me for being this kind of girl.

You Are Made of Stardust



you never cease to blow me away, love. do you know that?
do you ever know that?
that every time you open your mouth and whisper my name,
a sudden feeling of warmth enters my soul,
penetrating my very bones and 
giving me a slight shiver in the insides...

you are my evening smile, my light...
a stardust swaying with the wind in the stillness of the night,
covering every emotions with peace...

and you still haven't got any idea 
how much your presence mean to me,
and your absence make my heart wither...

You Made Me Cry...You Made Me Laugh...

 Why is that, that the person who made you cry is the only person who can put the smile back on your face?


Nothing felt right for the last few days... All filled with fake laughters, and hidden tears. I thought the happiness that embraced me over the past week has ended, abandoned me again, and flew back into the ones who really needed it. But he came back... I'm overjoyed. Once again, I felt loved. Once again, I felt needed.

I Want to Feel Needed!!

    I’m the girl who would love to lay her head on your shoulders just to feel safe.
Who would love you to hold her hands just to feel she belongs…
And who would want you to hug her every time she’s afraid, or sick, or bored…
 I’m that kind of girl. 
I love being dependent, and I love you more each time you're here when I need you… 
when I close my eyes and wish you’re here and after a few moments, you’ll come knocking at the door and I get to see your face. 
Sometimes, I love being weak because I know you will be strong for me… 

but there are times, dear, there are times when I need to be strong too. 
Times when you are sick, or lonely, or when you rest your head on my shoulder…
 ahh. It’s a wonderful feeling. 
I love the feeling of being needed... 
that for once in my life, I’m needed by someone… having a shoulder strong enough for you to rest on… 
a hand warm enough to hold you when you’re cold… 
lips that can say the words that you need to hear… 
I love it, darling.
I love you.

I Miss You Love...Even If You Don't


Perhaps you should know that behind those smiles,
she is secretly dying...


Perhaps you should know that despite her lack of patience,
she is waiting.


Perhaps you should know how much she needs you right now.

But you have no idea.
And I hate you for that.

But I couldn't stand hating YOU.
So I'd hate myself, rather.

Oohhh.... I'm melting. What am I to do?

Just... Just come home. Hug me.

I MISS YOU

Look At Me.....See Me.....

 

 
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One sad thing about life is the realization that the world is too big to make you it's priority. It can break you, crush you, turn you down, tear you apart without it noticing... You will cry, get hurt, get lost, feel abandoned without being seen. For in the world, you are so tiny compare to all those beauteous, enticing beings who have done so much for it and the last thing you'll ever think of is to move on and make yourself worthy of existence...
Come on, no matter what you do, he'll never look back at you. He'll never see you like he did the first time you met. He'll never have time to listen to your stories or appreciate your songs. He'll never pinch your nose again which have always made you so annoyed but actually the reason why you find him so cute. He'll never realize how much you are hurting coz' he is just too busy minding his own life. He is your world but YOU aren't HIS.
I wish I could simply let go of this feeling. Clear those dark grey clouds away from my sky and paint a bright, gleaming sun through the strength of my playful imagination. But I couldn't. My mind only does things according to my heart's desire. It feels whatever my heart feels. And you know what? It feels for you. It beats, and it  bleeds because of you. And yeah, obviously rejecting the idea of moving on, or letting go, or acceptance...
Can I just stay? If I stay, will you do too? 
Or will you just leave me here alone with the rest of the world?
Will you look back at me?
Will you see me?
Will you remind me again about our love story
Or just simply turn around and say "I'm Sorry"...

...You are my world... The sad part is I am not yours. It's okay if I'm not your priority... Just don't forget about me. Think of me one in a while. Assure me of your love. It's all I want.

...will you just look at me?

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 I just needed to let it out.
I'm feeling kind of ignored by --- HIM.
Oh yes, HIM.
Do you know this feeling?
I hope not. Cause it hurts.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

My Name On Your Lips...


"My new favorite place in all the world is buried in your sheets, tangled up in you. My new favorite word is my own name rolling off your lips at a whisper. And when I’m with you it all just melts away. It’s all okay."

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he told me everything will be fine... and i believe in those words.
someday, all the pains i felt will all be gone...
away with the wind